I've been fascinated with the notion of boundaries, liminal spaces, for so long. If you think about it, all the most interesting things, no matter whether it's art, science, social change, medicine or whatever, happen at the edges, away from the mainstream, the middle-of-the-road. It's often those who exist on the edges who give us a chance to see the truth more objectively. And of course, we're terrified of border places, where one thing bleeds into another, where you're not quite sure where one thing ends and the next begins, where we cannot categorise and box things up neatly. Where the line between 'me' and the 'other' whatever that might be, is blurred. Where things are slippery, the ground is shaky, and nothing is fixed. Think about every fairytale you've ever read, the most dangerous times are sunset, or midnight, or dawn, where it is neither day or night, neither morning nor evening, yet both. The water's edge is always filled with danger, the beach is sometimes sea and sometimes land, depending on the tide. When you stand waist deep in the sea, half of you is in another world where you could not survive for more than a couple of minutes without special breathing apparatus. That's kind of freaky if you think about it. Imagine how strange and terrifying it might be to someone who cannot swim at all, to be able to see to the bottom of a pond, yet not be able to get there...what if you dropped something precious? Lost forever and yet still tantalisingly visible.
I think this is an idea I'd like to explore more, use it in my work, now that I've worked out what it is that bothered me...see, it was lurking there on the periphery, on the edge, in that liminal space between awareness and knowing. It's always so much more comforting to be able to bring an idea in from the cold dark, and sit it in front of the fire with a hot cup of Milo. Then you can see what it is and how big it is. It's much less threatening that having it lurking outside in the night, just out of sight, running with the wolves somewhere between the first and last strokes of midnight!